Hello.
Today is just one of them days (that a girl goes through). And no, I'm not pms-ing, I just got finished with my cycle a few days ago. So what is it that is making me feel so BLAH? I'm hoping that writing through this blog will help me figure it out.
1. Weather?
So is it the not so common in southern orange california gloomy weather? I hope not. I've been working indoors in the office most of the day so that can't be it. Besides, based on the Seven Habits of Highly Effective People by Stephen Covey, I shouldn't be reactive to my surroundings. Especially one as easily reactive-prone like the gloomy weather.
Deduction - not the weather.
2. Traveling stress?
I'm traveling for work soon. Could it be that I'm so busy with work and am overwhelmed w/ the business of getting ready for travel? Am I reactive to my busy work schedule? If I really step back and think about it, I don't really have THAT much to do. There's a lot of little things on the list, but none of it is urgent or important that must be done right away. Aside from paying my insurance bill. But that's about it. I should be able to get it done. Besides, I'm taking Friday off to relax.
Deduction - MIGHT be traveling stress. Must control.
3. Love bug?
Could it be that I'm sad the one I admire does not admire me back? It could be it. But could it also be, that once I determined he didn't admire me I had a much stronger admiration for him? Historically, I do have a tendency to carry that flawed trait. I sit here I wonder what I could have done differently to make our fate work out together. But I guess what's done is done. And it is what is it is. Those should be my motto. I have a couple awesome guys who seem to admire the heck out of me. And whom I admire back. But it's hard to appreciate when there's something out there that you want but cannot have. Man, human nature fucking sucks. But, and I revert back to Mr. Covey, humans can control emotions. We can fight our animal instincts, think, and do the right thing. We are human. Lets take advantage of it.
Deduction - MIGHT be the love bug. Must control.
Fuck. Man. I just feel like cursing. And blaming. so I can curse.
